Each new day is like a new page in the story of your life.. I want to write mine down whenever I can.. right about now, I feel the stress of the consequences of my actions. It's tiring, painful sometimes, but at the same time, happy and fulfilling.
What's on my mind right now
One of the things I deal with everyday is acceptance of reality - A reality that I don't always like, the reality of potential dangers of the things and people that I care for and hold dear, and there is of course.. (faintly) the reality of hope for happy moments in the future.
Today, I closed my eyes momentarily in meditation and prayed for patience and strength. I believe it's what I need right now the most. The patience is necessary to understand and see clearly in order to do things right. Strength is necessary to be able to endure the toll of waiting brought about by practicing patience.
I am lagging behind in my latest web project.. I'm not happy with how the schedule is eating up too much of my freetime there's barely any time to continue developing it. I need to focus again.. I have it.. it's just that it's faltering now because of some external factors that are causing me to lose concentration.
I love what's happening to my photography though.. after having accomplished what I've initially set to do.. it's time to start taking things to another level still, even if it will increase the chances of reaching heaven by 1%. I wonder how my best friend photographer is doing.. we've taken different roads. He's on the street and I'm on the road to cosplay. While we are from different disciplines, we are connected in our mission.. to build our own heaven.
There.. I feel much better.. I offer this post for those who are weary in their struggle to make things happen in their lives. Find your own medium of living your story in the best possible way..
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
When only leftovers are left..
I had an unwarranted sermon from my dad about how I adamantly refuse to spend on anything other than helping with the house bills. My reason is simple -- I do not see sound spending in things I don't get to use (such as the car, a mactan-stoned wall and floor, and uh.. paint?).
He was going about what he will do if he does still manage to make good income with real-estate still. Not that I don't believe him about the things he still wants for me (like buying me things like a car, etc.)
Why is it like that? Parents always expect you to want to give back some things.. and when you do, they grow dependent on you. And here, some parents (the really lean mean and priority-conscious ones) will educate you like -- a parent's role is to support their children until they graduate. After that, their obligation is done. Personally, I think the latter is better.
Parents have their own lives to live. Being free from an obligation of sending your children through college is something I believe all parents deserve. However, being free from the obligation does not earn the parent the right to be demanding to your children for support.
And the same applies with adolescents who graduate. They can't be dependents forever, so they should strive HARD and make every effort - to be independent one day. Given this premise -- how the hell can they achieve independence when the parents are coercing you for support?
The answer is simple.. make provisions to be on your own. Period.
Here lies the problem - parents will still want to give their care to their children, regardless of their age.
Going back to what my father says about the things he still wishes to give me.. even if that does happen now -- there's a world of difference in giving your son a car when he's turning thirty and when he just turned 21 (and even sadder still when you're turning 40). I'm like.. "Oh Joy *sic*". I'm really glad I've let go of those types of expectations a long time ago. I've already assessed my situation and seen the vision of what life would be like if I lived alone.
Now back to getting real..
He was going about what he will do if he does still manage to make good income with real-estate still. Not that I don't believe him about the things he still wants for me (like buying me things like a car, etc.)
Why is it like that? Parents always expect you to want to give back some things.. and when you do, they grow dependent on you. And here, some parents (the really lean mean and priority-conscious ones) will educate you like -- a parent's role is to support their children until they graduate. After that, their obligation is done. Personally, I think the latter is better.
Parents have their own lives to live. Being free from an obligation of sending your children through college is something I believe all parents deserve. However, being free from the obligation does not earn the parent the right to be demanding to your children for support.
And the same applies with adolescents who graduate. They can't be dependents forever, so they should strive HARD and make every effort - to be independent one day. Given this premise -- how the hell can they achieve independence when the parents are coercing you for support?
The answer is simple.. make provisions to be on your own. Period.
Here lies the problem - parents will still want to give their care to their children, regardless of their age.
Going back to what my father says about the things he still wishes to give me.. even if that does happen now -- there's a world of difference in giving your son a car when he's turning thirty and when he just turned 21 (and even sadder still when you're turning 40). I'm like.. "Oh Joy *sic*". I'm really glad I've let go of those types of expectations a long time ago. I've already assessed my situation and seen the vision of what life would be like if I lived alone.
Now back to getting real..
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